There's a huge big difference between being a pawn, and knowing that other people think that you are a pawn, and knowing that other people believe that you are a pawn.
Being aware of other's insanity and '4D emotional dramas' being played out in symbolic terms is never the same as agreeing that they should even be able to exist, if the universe worked right.
If you were infected with something, but didn't know you were infected, how would you get rid of it?